Ranting and Venting

[journeyfleet]

I think I'm going insane. Of course, it's just the same old stuff, but honestly, I believe I am actually losing my mind. Now, everything I'm saying is unbelievable, and if I told anyone, they'd think I was making it up. But here I go.
I cannot relax. I am tense in body and mind. I am always in stress. I cannot speak properly anymore. My words do not sound right and I cannot say what I mean clearly. I am having conversations with myself. More than usual. My handwriting will change drastically as I'm writing, and before long, the paper looks as though three or four people were having a written argument. I think there is someone behind me always. I cannot think clearly. I am close to tears often. I am sometimes catatonic. Today alone, I sat in the same position for ten minutes and could not move or respond. My breathing is uneven. I cannot fall asleep or stay asleep. I am not motivated. I am losing interest in everything. I am lying to people and avoiding contact without even realizing it. I stopped breathing without noticing. I cannot function anymore!!!!!!

[renaruki]

<Insert Confused face here>

I was talking to my boyfriend, I am super worried and scared. I am thinking that he wants to break up with me cause i got a text from him saying that he has to tell me something. I can't calm down. I just have no idea what he is going to say. I'm just worried because one of our friends brother has been trying to break us up. I don't him to break up with me. What should I do!?!?!?

<Insert worried face here>

[bobokitten]

Goddamn I feel so pissed. You see there is this chick Alec, and I just fucking hate her guts. I mean I don't get her because you see in 4th grade she came to my school and I was really nice to her, but then she became a total bitch, now I have to wonder why the fuck she's being a fucking bitch. Like one time we got partnered up as math partners and you know what she said out loud to the entire class she had said "What why do I have to be partners with Mac? Shes so stupid!" but yes it is apparent that I am stupid even though I'm one of the advanced kids and yeah she has also refers to me as a Asian bitch, God I hate her. And you know what else she's a fucking whore. I mean 'cuz one time during lunch so was fucking Bryce who is a fucking douche bag, he is a dumass jock who is a bully to everyone. But you know what I kicked his ass once, yeah I know what your thinking violence doesn't solve anything but you what it was necessary, I'll tell you the whole 'kay. Alright so it was a normal day in class then the teacher had to leave the room, so while the teacher was gone I decided to talk to my friends, but then I see Bryce about to slap them. So then I came over and said "Hey Bryce, alright so I see that my friends have pissed you off, so how about I make sure they don't bother you anymore okay?" then he slapped me! And well I just snapped, I kicked his ass in just a few minutes, then he collapsed clutching himself in pain. Then his shitty-ass friends stared laughing saying he just got beat up by a girl, I walked off with my friends saying that was so awesome of me. Okay okay I feel better telling you all of that. Alright bye.

[Nobody]

Mar 16, 2013 1:50:23 GMT -5 bobokitten said:

Goddamn I feel so pissed. You see there is this chick Alec, and I just fucking hate her guts. I mean I don't get her because you see in 4th grade she came to my school and I was really nice to her, but then she became a total bitch, now I have to wonder why the fuck she's being a fucking bitch. Like one time we got partnered up as math partners and you know what she said out loud to the entire class she had said "What why do I have to be partners with Mac? Shes so stupid!" but yes it is apparent that I am stupid even though I'm one of the advanced kids and yeah she has also refers to me as a Asian bitch, God I hate her. And you know what else she's a fucking whore. I mean 'cuz one time during lunch so was fucking Bryce who is a fucking douche bag, he is a dumass jock who is a bully to everyone. But you know what I kicked his ass once, yeah I know what your thinking violence doesn't solve anything but you what it was necessary, I'll tell you the whole 'kay. Alright so it was a normal day in class then the teacher had to leave the room, so while the teacher was gone I decided to talk to my friends, but then I see Bryce about to slap them. So then I came over and said "Hey Bryce, alright so I see that my friends have pissed you off, so how about I make sure they don't bother you anymore okay?" then he slapped me! And well I just snapped, I kicked his ass in just a few minutes, then he collapsed clutching himself in pain. Then his shitty-ass friends stared laughing saying he just got beat up by a girl, I walked off with my friends saying that was so awesome of me. Okay okay I feel better telling you all of that. Alright bye.

I ate people like this Alec chick. They just don't shut up! It's like, 'Bugger off!' And then there's kids like Bryce. They're just as bad. Luckily, I've never had to deal with someone being violent towards a friend of mine. But if I had, I'd have probably done the same thing >.< I hate violence, but if you screw with my friends you're screwin with me. Which, luckily most people know that and don't mess with my friends cuz they don't want to screw with me. xD

And good for you sticking up for your friends!!!
(And I'm glad you're feeling better.)

[fearofonlylife]

Okay, let me start of by telling you this: I'm not exactly a 'talkative' type, and I don't have many friends because of that, so... I guess you can figure out why I want to vent to someone, even if it's only on the Internet, right? I don't really fit in anywhere. As I've said before, I'm not talkative and have no friends. What I don't understand, however, is how some people, even more assholeish that I am, have so many people that they can trust with their feelings and thoughts. I'll attempt to talk to a person, but they'll either ignore me or call me 'fat' or 'ugly'. Why can't any of them realize that I need someone to talk to sometimes? Why can no one see that I don't want to be alone anymore?

[bobokitten]

I don't know what the hell is going on with me.... I just don't know. I mean my mask is starting to make tiny little cracks, and it scares me because I don't want to snap on someone, I don't know what to do because now more of my anger starts to pour out. The other day I almost tried to hurt two people(bullies), but I wouldn't mind if they got hurt... I almost tried to do it.... I can't deal with it I'm going to tell you what I wanted to do.

I was going go over and smash their heads into the desk until they are unconscious, throw one of them through the window(We were on the second floor) and beat the other with a chair. But you want to know the sad thing was that my friend was laughing with them when they were calling me names. I wanted to cry but instead I smiled at them and thanked them for calling me names. Now I question why did my friend laughed with them... I kinda feel better telling you that.