Really Bad

[angelicdreams]

I hit an all time low today.

During school, we were going to play a game, but I really just wanted to sit off to the side. The entire class began to yell at me and tell me I had to play, because I was fat and needed to work...

CAN THEY NOT FUCKING UNDERSTAND THAT I FAILED FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER LAST NIGHT?!

CAN THEY NOT FUCKING UNDERSTAND THAT THE ONE PERSON I TRIED TO HELP ON TUMBLR ENDED UP KILLING THEMSELF DESPITE ALL THAT I DID?!

If it weren't for the fact that I don't have a pair of scissors at school, I may not be writing this post right now.

I'm pretty strong, but after losing someone, even if I didn't know them for long, and then having people at school call me fat...

I actually hit so low that I did this...


The words below it, "There's a better choice" wasn't for anyone else. My friend Jordan saw me shaking and crying, so she told me those four words, so I wrote them on my wrist. My friend Mary also drew a butterfly on my other wrist.

[ilovepercy122]

Sky, I remember the night I scared the crap out of you by sending you that message. You told me, and I quote,
"Come on love, your better than this. You don't have to do this."
Well, I'm telling YOU this. Don't ever, EVER scare me like that again. I thought for a second, when you posted that journal, 'Oh my god, no. No. NOPE.' I swear I thought you'd cut yourself. I nearly had an asthma attack.
I HAVEN'T HAD AN ASTHMA ATTACK SINCE THIRD GRADE.
Love, you aren't fat. Your gorgeous. Don't believe them, they're just jealous. DON'T kill yourself. If you did, that shreds the last thing keeping me from cutting myself again. Think of me. Think of your Girlfriend. Think of everybody on here, and everybody that loves you before you do it. I love you too much to loose you.
There's a rainbow after it rains. You just have to wait for it